Blurring into undifferentiated mush

I’m seriously losing track of things here. I’m managing to mostly keep up with what day it is, but what week it is is a different matter. Even with a calendar open and my computer showing me the date I needed three tries to find the correct week.

I think what passes for my brain is rotting.

That said, I do like the benefits of working from home – the commute that consists of turning the work computer on in the morning and turning it off in the evening, getting loved by whichever cat has decided he or she needs attention, having a nice view out the window… The problem, such as it is, is that I never really set up to work from home as a semi-permanent thing. I have the work laptop on my desk beside my keyboard and monitor, and it’s not really the best possible position or particularly ergonomic.

Of course, when all this started I’d thought it would last maybe 6 weeks, not the dragging 3 months and counting (latest from the job is that we can expect to be working from home at least through the end of June – and judging by what they’re considering as criteria to reopen the workplaces, where I work is going to be among the last ones reopened. They’re calling it re-entry criteria).

So… with no real outside influence, everything does tend to blur into an undifferentiated mush. There’s no real cycle to the day, and no real cycle to the week. Probably the biggest distinction my weekends have is that the work computer doesn’t get opened.

The home one never gets turned off unless its rebooting itself for the latest round of updates, so that’s not really a distinguishable marker of anything. I can’t even use the work deployment cycle because it’s been thrown to the winds in the wake of upper management wanting lots and lots of changes to handle the flailing flurry of legislation. So we’ve been deploying about once a week (and Words have been Said, and expressions of Displeasure made, pointing out that doing this has led to some less than well-designed changes and potentially things that could cause Issues further along. But when the VP speaks, you jump).

There’s also the adjustment to medication thanks to the pancreas finally giving up the ghost (I’m on insulin now and adjusting to the change), something that saw multiple trips to the local pharmacy pickup window. That’s settling nicely, and not causing any problems now I’ve found a sufficiently cat-proof container for the sharp pointy things that have exactly one use.

The once a week-ish run to the supermarket to pick up edibles for the day helps, too – a little fresh air, replenish the snack supply… I suspect that the budget’s been helped a lot by the fact that I haven’t needed to fill the car since mid-February. It would be nice if they didn’t have the whole “thou shalt wear the mask” thing going, particularly because the damn thing makes it harder to breathe (I have chronic allergy issues, and right now is peak allergy season), and worse than that, creeps up until it’s in my bloody eyes.

In the interests of actually being able to get into the store, I suffer the indignity and deal with the bloody thing. For as short a time as possible. I’m not sure I’ve ever seen so many highly intelligent idiots go off their tree like this before – it’s taken three bloody months of seeing fully two thirds of the deaths in my state come from people in retirement homes for our dear darling guvna to realize that maybe aggressive testing and treatment in retirement homes as opposed to shutting down the entire state might be a good idea. He’s still not sure about it.

Apparently since Posner nature has developed more powerful morons.


  1. You might try a transparent face shield (they’re about $15 at Home Depot) — blocks access to your face but is open at the bottom, and they can’t claim you’re not ‘covered’. Also useful for keeping crap out of your eyes when making sawdust, and preventing broken face parts when a woodturning project decides to go ballistic.

    1. That may be worth checking out. Especially if we get an order to go in to the office but wear masks all the time (I sincerely hope not – I’m in one of those jobs that can be done just as well from home as in the office, so I doubt my group is a high priority to go back)

  2. “Apparently since Posner nature has developed more powerful morons.”

    And put them in charge of the CDC?

    1. The CDC, my state, the media… The really cynical part of me is waiting for the tax hikes because tax revenue has to be way down with so many places not allowed to open.

  3. Keeping a grip on the passage of time is proving to be a challenge around our dump, too. My wife Beth says that she knows which day of the week it is from which pair of coffee mugs she put out the evening before. I usually go by which of the little cells in my pill keeper still have pills in them. But time at the “macro” level can get away from us, too, especially given the unusually cold spring we’re having.

    The loss of social interaction is worse, though.

    1. I have trouble with time management in the first place, so that is a problem.

      I’m a bit short of my needs for the right sort of social interaction.

      Of course, if I went entirely around the bend, would anyone here actually notice? 🙂

    2. Isn’t it funny how so many of us who thought of ourselves as “not a people person” are finding that some minimal amount of interaction is necessary to our well-being? Without those random interactions, we do tend to wilt.

      1. Introvert isn’t “doesn’t need people”, introvert is “doesn’t need as many people”, eh?

        1. Oh yeah. Introvert is “needs time alone to recharge after too much time with people”, no “does not need people”.

          1. The most introverted introvert I’ve ever heard from said he needed to talk to a person once a month or he’d get squirrely, and he made it a rule to do so every week, just to be safe.

            Notice even HE would start having trouble.

        2. And it’s like the old Unix joke…

          “Unix is user friendly. It’s just selective about who its friends are.”

          Selectivity matters.

      2. Surprisingly true that while I’m good with very little face to face contact, this lock down has still affected me as I miss what little face time I used to have. A little being a whole lot more than virtually none.

  4. Understand the losing track of things. I’m still working at the office, even if the schedule has been subject to turmoil, and ordering the week into weightlifting and recovery days. But my darling man appears to be letting lots of things lapse into “working on it”, as there’s no almost no external schedule happening to reinforce the passage of time.

    I just bit his head off, quite unfairly, because he’s been working on the formatting for the book for two weeks now. Which, given that’s usually a 12-hour to 3-day process, sabotaged the pre-release marketing I’d been doing. I cannot create anticipation and then expect people to maintain any excitement for “Oh, it’ll show up eventually. Maybe this week. Maybe next. Maybe in a month.”

    Quite unfairly, I say, because while the delay is costing actual dollars and sales, it’s never wise to bite someone’s head off instead of providing a calm, rational discussion and a very firm deadline. Especially when they love you; I am not a praying mantis and should not treat my darling like he is one, either.

  5. The only thing making most of my days different are the movies I watch or the meals I eat. At least some places are reopening in my hometown now, even if they decided to keep the hair salons shut, which was announced THE DAY BEFORE THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO REOPEN. Bookstores are opening, so I intend to stock up. At least it’s one more thing I can do in a week.

  6. $SPOUSE and I are retired, so day’s aren’t critical, and with broadcast TV somewhere between hiatus and meh, the evenings don’t separate much. Monday is now market day, so that’s different for me. She loathes wearing a mask. I’m starting to rebel, but beyond medical facilities, masking up isn’t mandatory. Yet.

    Oregon has several counties entering Stage 1 of limited freedom (including ours, yippie!), with ubercautious opening. Restaurants must have tables 6′ apart (gonna be interesting for the smallish taqueria), but at least one can sit down and have a meal. That’s assuming the place isn’t crowded with a waiting line. It’s a *good* taqueria! There’s still takeout, mercifully.

    Hair/barber/nail/whatever salons reopen, but it’s appointment only, with temperature check, and required face masks. I used Great Clips previously, but am not sure the restrictions will work for a place like that. Did a DIY job last week, and I’m guessing I’ll have one or two more before things might get easier.

    FWIW, Amazon has a good selection of official sharps containers for decent prices. I get my small one (lancets and test strips only, good for several years) through the pharmacy, but it’s on the ‘zon list. They have various sizes, and some have latchable lids to make it tough for the more enterprising kitty.’

  7. Our library’s finally reopening, but only for curbside pickup of books put on hold, not for us to go inside and browse the shelves. And they’re saying they want us to return all the books we had out during the shutdown by June 8. I’m hoping they just mean they’d like us to respect the due date even while they continue to not impose fines, rather than that they’re going to disable renews for books that were checked out before the reopening, so we have to return them all and then put holds on them and wait while the books pass through a quarantine and cleaning procedure. I have 117 books borrowed (out of a possible maximum of 125), and some of them are research items for long-term projects, so having to return them all would be a major hassle. However, I am going to try to get as many as possible finished and back by then.

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