I’m Tired

I’m Tired

May 6, 2026

1–2 minutes

I come by it naturally this time. First, I’m on an antibiotic that is making my body doubt all its choices, back to being born.

Second I have had this incredibly persistent cough. I can curb it by using the steroid inhaler at night time. Guess what I forgot to do yesterday?

This means that I really don’t have much in the way of words, today, not even words for a blog post.

With all that, it’s better than the alternative, which for the particular symptom that got me on this antibiotic would be cancer. And if it were, I’d be trying to write despite illness, so I can get things out before I die.

In either case, another round of re-evaluation being done. How long do I have? I can’t know. My family is bi-modal. Either we die in our sixties or we live forever. My brother, rebelling for once in his life, is trying to buck the trend and go in his seventies. (That’s another rat in my head right now.)

Well, I’m in my sixties, and I have a lot of books started that need finishing. So they’re out and not haunting me. Despite increasingly uncertain health and all the other worries that come from having a body (Whose idea was this, bodies? They’re so glitchy.)

Anyway, I’m going to take my sleepy behind — and typing hands — upstairs and work.

Sorry for the no-post post. I’ll try to pick up next week.

5 responses to “I’m Tired”

Mike Houst

May 6, 2026 at 12:15 pm

Hmm. Is it okay if I ask HIM to not take you until you’ve written the perfect novel? Perfect meaning you’re overqualified to keep hanging around with the rest of us meat sacks and need to be assigned a harder job. 😉

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kamas716

May 6, 2026 at 12:16 pm

Take care.

I had to take my wife to the ER on Monday. She has a double infection, bacterial and fungal. So, she’s on strong antibiotics this week, and then another round of anti-fungal next week, along with anti-nausea and pain meds. She’s missed a couple of days of work, with no pay since she burned through her sick leave earlier this year. She’s hoping she can go back tomorrow.

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Leigh Kimmel

May 6, 2026 at 1:08 pm

Hugs. I just spent almost an hour this morning dealing with a Charlie Foxtrot at the lab where I was supposed to get bloodwork done. My primary doctor’s orders for the tests wasn’t showing up in their computers, and no, my endocrinologist’s orders for a thyroid test weren’t showing up either. After a great deal of back and forth with the doctor’s office, orders were faxed — but only one test of several actually came through, and it was one that didn’t need to be done fasting, not the ones I needed to be fasting for. So there I was, famishing from the delay, and facing the probability that I’ll need to fast again when we finally get things straightened up. I managed to hold it together to get the blood draw done, but I can tell I’m probably going to be on a short fuse today because lunch hasn’t gotten me back to normal.

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Teresa Peschel

May 6, 2026 at 1:18 pm

I understand. I’m 66. I will never finish the projects I can visualize so I must prioritize (awful word) what I really want to get written. Or done. Or sewn.

All while coping with increasing joint pain.

Best wishes on a good and full recovery.

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Frank

May 6, 2026 at 2:23 pm

So now, I get to add you to my prayer list that is already starting to match my TBR list. Oh wait, I include you, Dan and the kids on it when I pray for your brother anyway. You get the group discount. 🙂

The Big Guy has his own agenda, and it’s not ours. (That’s my own translation of a famous biblical verse). My wife left notes for two sequels to her novel, but I’m not her and could never write them. She also left copious notes on another project that I helped her brainstorm, and I’m seeing if I can finish that much less demanding one. Meanwhile i’m trying to get my second novel written, but I don’t have a trainload full of stories lined up behind it like you do, so I don’t know what I’m going to do after that.

OTOH, Jerome Bixby finished the screenplay for The Man From Earth on his deathbed, and his son took 10 years getting it produced. It’s been 5 years today since the best woman who ever lived went to her reward, and it seems like I’m going to keep her waiting for our reunion for a while.

Anyway, sleep well and cosmic hugs.

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