I’m sure it happens to everyone, that you lose track of something that used to be completely ingrained. I’ve been discovering this week that I’ve managed this.
In my case, I’ve managed to forget just how much music can boost me as long as I’ve got the right music going. The rediscovery was being pointed to a video of a Serbian singer named Marija Serifovic performing her Eurovision-winning song in the empty streets of Belgrade during the mega-lockdown there.
I’ve been binging on her YouTube videos ever since because even though I don’t understand a word of her work (unless she’s covering something that’s written in English – I strongly recommend her cover of Queen’s “The Show Must Go On”) something in the combination of her voice and the music speaks to me. Or possibly kicks me in the bum.
Honestly, I’d almost forgotten just how effective the right music can be for me. Between the workplace moving to the toxic building 18 months ago and me needing noise canceling headphones there to start with, then a whole lot of other things going nuts, I’d got completely out of the habit of working with headphones on as I listened to music that helped me stay awake and focused – if made me a bit disconcerting to others since I gather having the 50+ female headbanging or bouncing around to music nobody else can hear (and wouldn’t like if they could) is a bit unnerving to those not versed in the ways of the Kate.
Well, that and headaches meant there wasn’t much listening to music happening until I discovered Marija Serifovic.
Now I’m wondering what else has slipped from my mind while I’ve been juggling multiple kinds of chaos. The really sad thing about it is I can’t do this to a character – it would be just too convenient and too much Act of Author. Damn it.
Only the Ultimate Author gets to do that, and He doesn’t have readers bitching at Him every time He slips another deus ex machina into His sprawling epic with everything. I totally understand why Sarah wants to yell at Him, since He gets away with so many writing tricks we lesser beings aren’t allowed to use.
The whole World In Crisis plot is getting tired, too. Can we please have a deus ex author to bring a change of heart to all the twits who think they have the right and ability to control the rest of us?